If you and I went on a coffee date, I'd take you to McAlister's or Chick-fil-a. I know, I know, it's not coffee, but I'm more of a hot chocolate girl and there's no way I'm ordering that in this heat. Instead, we'd sip our sweet teas and tuck into a booth in the back. If we're close to the play room, I'd get distracted watching the kiddos romp and roll, and I'd blame it on missing my Seattle family. Living with five littles under age seven puts the kid radar on HIGH so I'm constantly checking to make sure everyone is present, playing nicely, and not hanging precariously from the play structure.
So, let me rephrase: If you and I sat down for sweet tea I'd smile, sigh, and sink into my seat before taking a sip. I'd tell you about my summer and how I can't believe it's already gone. My Seattle season came and went in the blink of an eye, two months gone in a flash, and the reality of grad school year two approaching is both exciting and frightening. The ever-future-minded me would gush about my upcoming show, classes, and responsibility, while rattling off a list of possibilities for post-grad life. Gotta get myself a big girl job and start paying off these loans. Oh wait, I have to graduate first. Which means I have to start the school year first. And I have a few days before that starts so praise the Lord!
If you and I sat down for sweet tea I'd tell you that my new favorite stress reliever is my journaling Bible. I picked up the creative scripture study technique last semester but put it on pause when I left my journaling Bible behind this summer. Now that I'm back, it has been so fun to dive into the Word and let it resonate with me. Gals like Shanna Noel are so creative and do some wildly beautiful journaling, but for now I'm sticking mostly to simple watercolor pictures. Relating objects I find around my house or in the day-to-day helps verses stick. Now every time I see the classic Anthro Volcano candle, I'll think of 2 Corinthians 2:14-16.
If you and I sat down for sweet tea I'd complain about my apartment, but just for a quick second. I LOVE living where I do, and it is so nice settling back in and decorating the place to make it fresh, but I am NOT a fan of the water smelling like rotten eggs for three days now. No sir, no ma'am, no thank you. The land around my building is in perpetual construction, and I have become the property manager's nightmare with daily e-mails. And I'm also that person who leaves notes on people's cars when they park in my assigned spot in the garage; they have the perfect combination of sweetness, snark, and a smiley face, so it's okay right?
If you and I sat down for sweet tea I'd admit that I've become OBSESSED with Bones! Like I needed to get hooked on a television series when my show is about to start. I gave it a try during finals week (a genius decision, I know) when I finished Criminal Minds, and I've been powering through the first five seasons all summer. But, knowing myself, I'm going to have to go to a weekends only rule when classes start. Ain't nobody got time to binge watch four episodes after rehearsal. At least I don't.
If you and I sat down for sweet tea I'd have to tell you I'm worried about loneliness. Not in the "I hate being single and feel forever alone" sort of way, but in the "I know myself and how I can turn into a lone island during school" sort of way. Saying goodbye to friends from Seattle is hard. Coming back to school without the gals I was closest to last year is hard. Looking at my schedule for the next two months feels hard. And I know myself enough to know that I can throw up walls and hibernate when taking the initiative with new friends or sorta-friends becomes hard. Friendships change as we change, especially when transition is a constant part of the equation. I'm worried about loneliness, but I'm also thankful for the people God has put in my corner: classmates, blog friends, family, and more. They're there even when it's hard to remember sometimes.
What about YOU, friend? How is your world and your heart today?