Monday, February 10, 2014

T E N || Season of Learning

Looking back over the past year, I am blown away by the things I have walked through and the lessons I have learned. Honestly, if I'd been given a schedule of each of these things on January 1, 2013 I might have gracefully bowed out. I would have said "No, thanks," as politely as possible and slipped back into my routine. When the Lord promised that 2013 would be a year of HOPE and ADVENTURE, it sounded great but I never dreamed what it would hold. 

This year, I approached 2014 in much the same way. I asked for a word to hold onto, pray through, and seek with Him, and the word SURRENDER fell into my lap. I laughed, I grimaced, and I asked again. 

"Really? Surrender? How about something... prettier? More fun? I'd really love something less painful, thanks."

No new word came. I wasn't thrilled, but a new determination settled in. "Okay, God, I'll surrender. Yeah, I can do that. I'll surrender this... and this.. oh, this too... but not that." I think you can see that I didn't entirely get the picture. I was "willing" to do what He asked, but only to a point.

There are so many things in life that I want to have control over and that I want to squeeze into my timeline. In a world where we want everything yesterday, and technology gives us access to anything and everything at the click of a button, we have lost any and all value in the waiting. Heaven forbid a Google search takes more than ten seconds to load or my Instagram feed won't refresh at the first swipe. Waiting in line at the grocery store? Psh, why does that woman need eight cans of soup anyway? We have road rage at red lights and quickly dismiss a Pinterest project that takes time to perfect. At least I do.

On top of all of that, I have fallen into the habit of presenting a list of dreams to Jesus saying, "Okay, here's the order and the instructions. I mean, take your time, but I'd really like to have this taken care of this week, if that's okay?"

It is not okay.

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In this season, I may have started searching for surrender, but the greatest treasure He has given me is the gift of waiting. I don't always like it, and believe me I'm not good at it, but I'm starting to see its necessity and the fruit. Louie Giglio once said "To us, waiting is wasting. To God, waiting is working." It cultivates trust. It shows us the need for an all-knowing Savior. It reminds me that His plan is better than my most neatly manicured dream. 

I am waiting for many dreams to come into fruition, but I am also learning to be active. He doesn't want us to sit around twiddling our thumbs. What He wants is for us to seek Him daily, pursuing the things of His kingdom, and living in real-time with Him. Yes, present your requests to Him and talk with Him about your dreams. Take practical steps to pursue the passions He has given you. But when He asks you to wait, do so willingly. Be an active encouragement to others and pursuer of Jesus. Serve in your local church, lend a hand to a friend, dig in to your current season while waiting and preparing for the next.

Whatever your waiting season looks like, He's right in the middle of it, I promise you. When you don't know how to actively pursue your dreams/desires, choose to actively pursue Jesus. He will share His dreams and desires as He pursues you. 

You can tell by this messy stream of thoughts that I'm still in the middle of this lesson. I want to be present and be passionately pursuing what He puts in front of me, even if what I desire or what He's ultimately calling me to is not yet on the horizon. He is worth it.

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4 comments:

  1. I love C.S. Lewis. I love how that verse is displayed. So true and good. I need to save that in my memory! I need to live the truth of it. Thanks for sharing!

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  2. just the message of encouragement i needed today, bailey! thank you for sharing your heart!

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  3. Beautiful words! I, too, feel like I'm in a season of waiting right now, and this was a wonderful reminder to search out Christ and find his role in my waiting season. So thank you!

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