Tuesday, January 28, 2014

"Go on. Live your dream." Don't worry, I plan to.

I am a dreamer. I always have been and always hope to be. When I say "dreamer" so many images and ideas come to mind. I used to think of dreamers as people with unrealistic expectations and a light grasp on reality. Dreamers expected the impossible and missed out on what was right in front of them. I didn't want to be one of those people. I didn't want to own that title. And for a long time, I dreamed small. Being a planner and a dreamer didn't make sense to me. I wanted to dream big but I wanted a five point plan to make it happen. I've learned that's not how it works.


For a long time, my definition of dreaming with Jesus meant telling him the things on my "checklist for a successful life" and crossing my fingers that they'd happen on my timeline. Let's just say, that didn't get me too far. These days, I tend to dream in six different directions. And some of these are BIG dreams. Bigger dreams than my typical, type-A self can rationalize. Oh, I'm still a planner and often the lack of a plan drives me to inaction, but being a dreamer in these past few seasons has taught me so much. Being a dreamer of BIG dreams calls for faith. BIG faith. INCREASING faith. And that hasn't been my forte. Thankfully there is grace. And time. And a patient God who cares about my dreams.

This year He has truly taken me on a journey of refining and defining the biggest dream of all. It no long fits into my box.  Which is terrifying. And exciting. I had a picture in my head of what I wanted my future to look like, but He is teaching me that I want what He has planned even more than that. And as gracious as He is, He gave me something of a mission statement to hold onto.
This dream is not attached to a place. It is not attached to a particular person. It is not attached to a calendar. Theatre isn't even specifically listed in there (believe me, I tried to sneak it in but He worked it back out...). But those three things are each part of the purpose I know He has for me. They can happen anywhere, with anyone, at any time. So while I may not know all the smaller details I'd like to, I know the One who is faithful, giving, and trustworthy.

I'll end the way I began, by quoting one of my favorite movies: "Go on. Live your dream." Let Him shape it as you go.


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3 comments:

  1. Your blog continues to be such am encouragement for me. I love knowing that I'm not the only one who struggles with this! As a christian woman (also a dreamer) I find it hard to realize God is not there to check off my dreaming plans but to help me surrender my dreams and all plans to him.

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    1. Oh, I'm so glad, Danica! It's not easy but He's worth it. And He's got it all under control.

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  2. This is beautiful, Bailey! Your posts continue to lift me up and I'm so excited for your blog series this February! Thanks for the encouragement, girl :)

    xo, gina

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