Thursday, November 14, 2013

Grasping for Rain Drops


"I think we all struggle when we can't hold onto something; like friendships, relationships or even just a daily routine. That is why we can feel lost when it comes to Christ, we can't hold Him so we feel a bit lost. But the thing is that we aren't supposed to hold onto Christ, He holds us. We cannot grab every rain drop, we just have to learn how to dance in it. One day we will find that in the end we have been holding Christ's hand the whole time, we just have to live in the reality that He has us and won't let us go; to be honest, that will be something that you might just have to struggle with for now."
~Todd LaBerge, God, Grace and The Gospel 

I don't know if anything more clearly puts into words what I've been feeling lately.  A routine has settled in and yet I feel as though I'm scrambling. My days are long --beginning at 6:00 or 7:00am opening at Anthro and continuing until my theatre classes end at 5:00 in the evening-- and sleep comes slowly. Oh, my days are full and enjoyable, but that feeling of treading water remains. I haven't been able to hold on to my quiet times with Jesus the way I used to, and it leaves me flailing. 

Katie calls her time with the Lord in the morning her "holy time," and that phrase rings beautifully and chock full of truth. Time spent in the Word and in His presence is hardly quiet for me, but I rarely think of it as holy. How silly, right? Spending time with the Lord --whether it is an hour with my Bible, journal and favorite pens neatly placed before me or the 10 minute drive to work after over-sleeping-- is and should be treated as holy. The Creator of the universe has made Himself accessible at any point and at EVERY point throughout the day. He shouldn't be an after thought, but even if He is He does not deny us His presence. 

So maybe my mornings look different and my evenings are a one track path from the front door to my bed, but God is still good. He doesn't have to be fully understood to be good or active in my life. The places I've been seeking Him and needing more of Him, He sees and has promised goodness. He sees ME right where I'm at: halfway out the door, in the stock room at work, corralling excited theatre students across the city. He knows what I need.

At times I become overwhelmed or discouraged by my lack of control over my life in this season. Maybe that's the lesson I'm supposed to be learning. I am not in control, but God has it all under control. I need to stop grasping for rain drops and rest by the still waters. Boy, do I need a breath of fresh air.

I'm tired of apologizing for sporadic posts here at Anchored in Love. In this season, that's how they may remain. I'm slowly but surely learning to make what matters happen, and sometimes an hour at my laptop is not a priority. But each of you wonderful friends and readers are. You bless me in so many ways and delight my heart with encouragement I know the Lord is sending my way through you. Thank you for that :) I love hearing from you and getting to know you, so please say hello. I may abandon the blog for a nap but I don't want to leave any of you in the dust. Know even if it takes me a while to respond, I so appreciate you and am praying for each of you. Thanks for hanging with me, dears :)

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13 comments:

  1. Aww, dont let hectic life get you down! Because Jesus is always with us! and you are right, no matter what is going on- He is still good!

    God has been teaching me about finding Peace in His Presence no matter what the day brings- check it out on my blog :)

    Love your blog- I am now following you... lets follow eachother and exchange buttons :) I grabbed yours.

    xoxo,
    -A
    www.truesoulandspirit.blogspot.com

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    1. Thanks for dropping by and for the encouragement! I love making new friends in the blogging world :)

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  2. "I need to stop grasping for rain drops and rest by the still waters." LOVE this!

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    1. That needs to be my new motto. God promises peace and boy do I need it!

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  3. I am right in this spot, too! Thank you for sharing and adding some comfort to my day!

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  4. Love this, Bails! You're so full and wisdom and grace!

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    1. <3 Your encouragements brighten my day!

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  6. Ahh, love what you said: "The Creator of the universe has made Himself accessible at any point and at EVERY point throughout the day. He shouldn't be an after thought, but even if He is He does not deny us His presence. " How true this is. It is so easy for me to get carried away by the worries of work but you're right . . . it is ALL His time when it comes down to it. He gives time as a gift and even gives us the choice how to use it. And when we bless Him by giving that time back, we in return are filled with joy

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  7. Will you still be posting your seasons of fruitfulness posts?

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    1. I've dropped the ball on posting them so far, but I hope to share this week's topic of GOODNESS by Friday, then fill in the others along the way. :)

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