Thursday, May 30, 2013

Learning to Let Go

How fitting that today's challenge topic be to respond to the words "Letting go." This is not an easy feat for me. In recent weeks I've been learning to let go in many different ways, and I've also come to the realization that my process of letting go may look different than others'. And that is perfectly okay.

May has held a lot of "lasts" and goodbyes so far and these will only continue in the next week. My count down to Seattle is increasing and here we are only 8 days away! With tearful farewells and driving off into the sunset, I was concerned and frustrated that I was not the one shedding tears. Nothing seemed or felt real. Much of it still does not. Deeming myself a "post-griever" I've been going through the motions and making a mental checklist of things to cry over later. Pathetic right?

I've let go of my best friends to allow them to move across the country.
I've let go of my safety net and the Baylor bubble to move into post-grad life.
I've let go of physical things, donating carfuls to Goodwill and packing the rest into storage.
I've let go of my 1.5 hour drive home to gain a 2,000+ mile flight.
I've let go of my picture of what my life was going to look like after graduation to embrace God's perfect plan.
It hasn't been easy, but it's what I've done.

When you first move off to college you're told that these will be the best years of your life and that they'll be gone before you know it. Ring by spring is something freshmen girls giggle about, sophomores roll their eyes at, juniors secretly hope for, and seniors either celebrate or ignore. Somewhere along the way I fell into each of those categories. Reflecting now I praise God for the place I'm at in life, ringless but content and blessed to have learned from each of my experiences.

Second semester arrived and graduation was just around the corner. We dove head long into the final stretch then suddenly it appeared! In March I had an encounter with a city that has left me and my future forever changed. I packed my bags and hopped a plane, never guessing that Seattle would become my next huge destination.

In choosing Seattle, I had to learn to let go. I'm learning to let go of the things I've worked so hard to build up on my own. My personal measures of success, safety, and security. I had made my bed and was curled up in it quite comfortably, but when I asked for Him to put a yes in my heart I never imagined I would be saying yes to this city.

Remember earlier how I said I was frustrated that there were no more tears? God's been teaching me something about that, too. Yes, I am sad that this season is over and I have so many good things to leave behind, but I believe that this next season, this next city, is exactly where He wants me to be. Why cry? Why mourn? He has given me a peace in this transition, peace that I've prayed for!

He has promised adventure and I want to take it. I want to let go of my fears, faults, failures, and embrace His freedom. I was reading in Romans yesterday and found the verse in the image above.

"God's Spirit beckons. There are things to do and places to go!"
Romans 8: 14, The Message

I believe it and I'm after it! Learning to let go has been heard and it will continue to be, but it is worth it. He is worth it. And He has shown Himself faithful!



8 comments:

  1. What a great post! I definitely need to do some letting go and letting God in my life. I have doubts, fears, etc, and I always fail to hand them over to God and let Him give me peace in His will. I'm so glad you are feeling peace in this season in life :)

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    1. Thank you dear! His peace is something I absolutely rely on, and He is so faithful to give it!

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  2. I'm definitely in the same place right now. I just graduated and I will be moving from Arizona to Missouri in August. Learning to trust God has been a task, but when I do he always shows me His grace.

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    1. Wow! Praying for your move, dear! He is going to walk you through every step of it :)

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  3. This is a BEAUTIFUL post!! I can soo resonate with it. I definitely had an image in my head of what I thought my life would look like, and when I turned 23 and had no boyfriend, my life was looking nothing like I thought it would have.

    All I wanted was a marriage, but you know what, God had a bigger plan. One that included a great job, amazing friendships, and even now I can see a love story that's more incredible than I ever could have hoped for. But that's still in progress ;)

    He has a perfect plan for you, lovely!!

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  4. I love that version of Romans 8:14!

    ~Taylor

    liveandmoveblog.blogspot.com

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  5. Hi, Bailey Jean! I saw your pin on Kiki @ In It's Time and after browsing a bit through your blog, I'm really loving it! Love your heart for Jesus and your overall style!

    Kellie

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